Love

Hidup aku kalo pasal love mmg takde luck kot..sama ade aku syg org tu giler2 n org tu tak syg mcm mane aku syg or org 2 syg aku giler2 tapi aku tak syg die mcm die syg aku..complicated kan?mcm2 persoalan slalu aku terfikir..disebabkan aku ke?terlalu memilih?biler aku dah pilih,ade je benda tak kena.smua org impikan normal relationship kan..bahagia,kekdg gado skit,kuar jln2 holding hands..so sweet.ape yg aku impikan ialah seorg lelaki yg memahami aku,i wanted a normal relationship as well but i dunno keadaan ape yg tak bleh aku ade normal relationship.A guy which dont let u to c their handphone,never say i love u to you,never memorize your phone number or birthday.do u guys still want dis guy?i do...how stupid i am rite?but at the same time i wish he will change..but since we r no attached together,i dont have any power to say anything.wat i can do is pray he will change.ok..y i love him?i dunno..i think he's special.he can be my fren n at the same time he can be so lovely towards me.i love him so much but im sure he didnt love me as much as i am.but i dunno,maybe he likes to keep things secretly.so i have to respect dat.i noe im still young,but sape xnk ade relationship kan.smua org nak dicintai n mencintai.so do i..im sure at the time he read dis,the first thing inside his mind will be lefting me..itz happen b4 when im trying to explain to him the situation between me n him which i dowan dat to be happen again.i juz want him to love me,datz it.i do love him,only god noe how i feel.but sometimes i wish he can treat me as i am special to him.i went to jakarta last 2 days,i cant text him since 1 msg cost me rm2 n my credit only left rm2.98.byk2 msg aku dpt,his msg yg aku reply even ade msg yg lebih important n i shud reply dat msg but i didnt coz his msg is much more important(to me).eh,wait.he didnt msg me.but he did call me but i didnt pick up the phone since itz going to be very expensive to him,so i text him to tell dat im in jakarta,n i ask him to take care of himself n i luv him.u guys noe wat did he replied to me?he said 'jgn lupa beli ape2 tuk i ye'.at first i was laughing when i got that msg but after dat i felt,did he care about me?did he luv me?y dont he reply to me 'ok,u take care 2,luv u 2' rather than ask me to buy sumthing for him.i dont mind actually wat he wrote to me,juz dat..sumtime i need to feel dat im in love.n today,im back to penang for a couple of days.i did call him to let him noe,n i told him,if anything juz text me coz sumtime when i text him,he didnt get any of my messages.till now,nothing.if he really care about me,at least he will text me to noe whether i already arrive in penang..safely.maybe datz the way he is.but itz ok since we r still young.no need to be rush.but the end of the day,he is such a nice man,juz dat he do not noe how to express his feelings.so wat can i do now is waiting for a gentleman come n approach me sumday...so guys,wish me luck in my love life..Love need sum sacrifice.

p/s: sori kalo english aku mcm sial.hehe.